So close yet so far away from getting my family back, I miss my son so much its hurts waking up and knowing he's not there! My daughter Mollee wants to come home now so bad but her daddy wont let her... how do you tell your only little girl, "sorry baby you can't come home?" its pulling me apart inside! I just wish this was all over. I admit this is something, a trial, that I needed to go through. I keep asking God to ,"MAKE ME STRONGER!" always forgetting that he doesn't just snap his fingers and BAM strength..... he gives you more trials to try your strength and test your testimony to make you stronger.... I'm 30 years old and I should have realized by now but it took me till this past Sunday's relief society lesson to actually hear it... wow!!!! All these years of asking God while knowing his answers don't come direct but through things in our daily life... and that we must pay attention to the answers as they may come in the small voice of your son when he asks mom to play with him instead of watching that stupid television program... I know I have taken my children for granted thinking they'll always be there... now I know, their not... yes I can talk to them and go see them but the title mom is a privilege not a right, earned not taken or given.... I miss my baby's and I'll NEVER give up or give in until they are here in my arms!!!! So go ahead CPS ..... ask me for more, I'll do it and Ill surprise even you!!!!